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set my soul alight

youngblackandvegan:

no one is going to know what you need

unless you tell them what you need

no one is a mind reader

and it’s unfair for you to be upset with people who have no clue what’s going on in your mind

open up your mouth

and express what you want

This atm. I need to stop punishing myself for feeling this way after convincing everyone I am okay.




"I am not the first person you loved.
You are not the first person I looked at
with a mouthful of forevers. We
have both known loss like the sharp edges
of a knife. We have both lived with lips
more scar tissue than skin. Our love came
unannounced in the middle of the night.
Our love came when we’d given up
on asking love to come. I think
that has to be part
of its miracle.

This is how we heal.
I will kiss you like forgiveness. You
will hold me like I’m hope. Our arms
will bandage and we will press promises
between us like flowers in a book.
I will write sonnets to the salt of sweat
on your skin. I will write novels to the scar
of your nose. I will write a dictionary
of all the words I have used trying
to describe the way it feels to have finally,
finally found you.

And I will not be afraid
of your scars.

I know sometimes
it’s still hard to let me see you
in all your cracked perfection,
but please know:
whether it’s the days you burn
more brilliant than the sun
or the nights you collapse into my lap
your body broken into a thousand questions,
you are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.
I will love you when you are a still day.
I will love you when you are a hurricane.

"

Clementine von Radics, Mouthful of Forevers  (via blackorgan)

Yes.


upclosefromafar:

openyourthird-eye:

highonvodka:

themixedbagofspooky:

spoopy-len-in-a-dress:

riningear:

doryishness:

displaced-angel:

ryedragon:

inritum:

reblog and make a wish!


this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

OH MY FUCKING GOD, IT’S BACK ON MY DASH.

THIS SHIT WORKS OKAY, I AM DEAD SERIOUS.

The last time I saw this on my dash, I didn’t think it would happen, so jokingly I wished I could go to a fun. concert.

AND GUESS WHAT, I WENT TO A FUCKING FUN. CONCERT.

THIS SHIT WORKS, TRY IT.

YOOOOOOO

I SAW THIS ON MY DASH THE OTHER DAY AND THOUGHT “ITS WORTH A TRY” SO I WISHED I COULD GET A 3DS

LITERALLY LIKE 4 DAYS LATER MY DAD SENT ME A PICTURE OF THE 3DS XL HE BOUGHT FOR ME WHILE I WAS AT SCHOOL

IM STILL FREAKING OUT ABOUT THIS

holy fuck, I didn’t expect this to work, I was like psh, whatever it’s just a quick reblog, but I wished my Dad would actually respond back to me AND HE FUCKING DID A FEW DAYS LATER, I GOT A FUCKING TEXT FROM MY DAD TODAY WHO HASN’T SPOKEN OR RESPONDED TO ME IN MONTHS HOLY FUCK WHAT IS THIS MAGIC IT WORKS. 

I WANTED TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND AND I DIDN’T THINK I’D GET DAYS OFF BUT THIS WEEKEND I’M HEADING UP THERE??? THIS IS CRAZY SHIT 

SO LIKE I JOKINGLY WISHED FOR MY OWN LEN KAGAMINE AND THEN LIKE A WEEK LATER I GOT A LEN NENDOROID??? H ELP

WTF OKAY SO THIS SHOT ACTUALLY WORKS BECAUSE WHEN I WISHED, I HAD WISHED MY CRUSH WOULD LIKE ME BACK AND GUESS WHAT? I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW. WHAT THE HELLLLL?????

ok I’ve said this before but IM DOING IT AGAIN THE FIRST TIME I SAW THIS, MY WISH DID COME TRUE SO I REBLOGED AGAIN AND SAID IT IN THE TAGS BUT THEN I WISHED FOR SMTH ELSE AND IT LITERALLY LITERALLY HAPPENED LIKE A COUPLE DAYS LATER WHAT THE HELL SO NOW IM WRITING THIS HERE FOR YOU BC I DONT BELIEVE IN THIS CRAP BUT STILL IT’S AN AWFULLY BIG COINCIDENCE

OKAY I SWEAR TO GOD THIS THING WORKS YOU HAVE TO PATIENT BC I WISHED THAT I COULD MOVE AWAY FROM MY SHITTY TOWN TO A WARM PLACE AND GUESS WHAT THIS JULY IM MOVING TO NORTH CAROLINA OKAY GUYS IM NOT MAKING THIS UP I AM SO CONFUSED ACTUALLY THIS IS GREAT BYE

🐘


June 11, 2014


I love you and I wish I can still tell you that everyday and hear the same from you.

There is sadness in her voice.

The kind of sadness which seems so elusive for the past few days suddenly comes running back to her as if waiting to be embraced

There is sadness in her voice.

The kind of sadness that brings back what she tries to forget
Every memory - a sharp and jolting pain

There is sadness in her voice.

The kind of sadness she hopes you will one day take away



 You are starting to get on my dreams again. I have not dreamt of you since August last year, the time I was so sick I thought I needed your TLC. My thoughts of you being buried, repressed into the unconscious. My fear of not moving on and not getting over you is starting to crawl into my skin like snake, constantly hissing to spook every nerve in my body.

I need to face and fight with my demons alone because you are not here anymore to silence them when they resurface every night. You, who have known me so well, can attest how much energy it takes me to fight with just one alone. You are the sole witness to all my struggles, especially the secret wars I have with myself.

Then it hit me. I have to stop punishing myself. I need to. Because you are not here and you are not coming back anymore. You are not going to kiss me on my forehead when I scream in my dreams. You are not going to indulge in my late night thoughts.

How dare you leave me during the times I need you the most. How can you just storm out of my life like this?

 



I suddenly found myself writing again while listening to Amy Winehouse’s Love Is A Losing Game.

I don’t know what surprises me most of the two. Or maybe it’s the fact that I’m back to writing about you after so many years is surprising.

This sadness is addicting. You are addicting. I never thought my first Tumblr post will still be about you. Heck I even deactivated my old one just so I can forget about you. But I guess I can’t. Maybe not in this very moment nor in the coming days.

I’m hoping I can.

Someday.

Someday I will come to accept that you are gone — maybe for a long time, or worse, maybe for good. Someday the sound of your name will not be as painful as it is now because after all this time rolling your name off my tongue is as painful as the day I screamed it pleading you not to leave. Someday the memories we shared will only play in my mind as figments of my imagination. Someday I will get over you the same way you have gotten over me: quick and easy and in a snap.

A heart can only take so much. Perhaps I never learn from before because I still cling on to the idea of us working it out. Maybe that is the reason why I never stopped giving you chances… chances you have blown away countless times in six years or so.

But not now. I know this time the blame is on me. One mistake and it has taken away my shot at forever with you. I am only human. Forgive me and my mistake. Forgive me for being confused, for doubting our relationship, for not trusting you and I can make it. I am sorry and I will have my whole life feeling sorry for myself.

On my denial days I ask myself if it is unjust for you to leave me just like the way you have done, without a trace and without any parting words. The world is cruel and I have expected too much from you.

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I love you. I still do.





LORENA BENJAMINE ♥


"It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live."

-Albus Dumbledore